Poetry: Couples 5: The Hangman and the Empress
5. The Hangman and the Empress
His father told him,
“Christ, remember your faith.”
But he doesn’t remember what faith is,
so he turns inward,
like clockwork, again and again
his mind a captive of his fears, trying to figure it out.
He looks up, he knows what he has to do,
he’s done it many times before
and the clock has brought him to that place again;
He artfully climbs the cross, it’s easy!
and suspends himself upside down
and anchors one foot with rope.
Don’t ask how. He knows. He needs to think,
this is his way,
so like he’s sent himself to the corner,
he dutifully goes.
He is the hangman of the tarot whose destiny
is self-sacrifice.
Mary, the Empress knows the drill. She takes her place beneath the cross.
Rests her back against it; she’ll be there for a while.
While he hangs, and hangs, she sits and sits.
She doesn’t need much, she is forever loyal.
(She thinks they are in a Samuel Beckett play; here we Godot again!*)
She offers him water, sustenance. Herself.
He never speaks. Doesn’t let on if he can hear her.
He stays stoic, unyielding, suspicious. Burdened by
his mind that is too heavy to carry upright;
he feels better when it hangs down, is pendulous,
in hopes of getting grounded.
Mary looks up and says, finally,
“YOU are Christ—YOU are supposed to have faith in YOU.”
He can barely hear from the din of his blood flowing through his ears
and his heart pounding.
“All you have to do is UNTIE your foot.” she whispers.
The reference to Godot
*http://www.theatrehistory.com/french/beckett002.html
The poet speaks.
The poem was orignally “Christ and Mary Magdalene” but I didn’t want it to take on a religious overtone, although the theme of sacrifice is pervasive.
I was reluctant to post this poem, I have issues with it. I am not sure I like it. Maybe it’s the situation that I don’t like.
You’ve read many of my poems, this one is quite different. Not everything I write is obvious, so I’ll give you a little background.
I am a tarot reader; a situation in my life reminded me of tarot cards in the major arcana. The first 22 cards of the major arcana represent the journey a person takes from the first card, the Fool, the the 22nd card, the World. We are always learning and growing and hopefully we make it to a point where we can say we have “arrived” and learned our life’s lessons.
Years ago I serendipitously met someone on the internet with a very different background than mine. His last name is Christ. (A hard act for any human to follow, and a very ironic name.) We became long distance friends, and as his career is computers, he taught me many things. We learned from each other, as mutual mentors and supporters.
But emotionally, on his journey to growth, he has over time, proven to be stuck at the Hangman stage. When you are hanging by your foot, you have the power and control to disengage yourself from self-sacrifice, however, this person ceases to communicate and hence withdraws from the world, leaving everyone and everything. It is a kind of passive aggressive behavior, and in this case, in addtion a weak coping mechanism. It happens over and over again.
In all stages of life we have the free-will and control to take responsibility for our actions. It’s sad when a person does not make changes to be happy and emotionally healthy, when there is no desire or ability to un-stuck one’s self.
I think I have finally learned that I can’t save anyone. Except myself.
Silence is a tough animal to deal with.
The enigma is thus: What does silence say?
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lunarechoes wrote on Jun 3, ’08
I love the poem, especially that final line. And Mary out of patience, speaking the truth–how powerful! And the wit, too–here we Godot–gotta love that!
I always thought it was the hanged man–but it’s been years since I’ve so much as handled a complete deck of tarot cards, and you are obviously an expert. I really enjoyed the explanation of the cards; I never knew that about the journey from the fool to the world, either. How cool. Maybe it’s partly because I find myself at a stage of untying my foot, so to speak–of making change to remain happy and emotionall healthy–but this poem and its explanation really speak to me. But it’s not just that–it’s the power of your writing. |
tulipsinspring wrote on Jun 3, ’08
You say you are not sure if you like it, but I loved it! I appreciated the background on the tarot cards, since I’m not very familiar with tarot readings (although I’d love to learn more). But I loved the rest of it, especially the last line too — “All you have to do is UNTIE your foot.” she whispers.
It’s funny how obvious that seems, and yet maybe not obvious to him at all. That is certainly what life is like — we can be our own worst enemies. I love the background information you give — like a window into a process I’ve never undertaken myself. And, of course, always happy to hear your reading! Another brilliant work — I’m constantly impressed. You have such a range, in addition to your many other talents. Thanks for this. |
lauritasita wrote on Jun 4, ’08
I had to read this interesting poem a couple of times. I listened with the audio the second time. Yeah, the last line is cool. We all get so “caught up” in life’s difficulty that we forget who’s holding the key to the door. (my interpretation). I agree this poem is a little different than the others you have posted, but it’s just as great. Thanks for the background information. It was very helpful in understanding the poem better.
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spoiledkitty29 wrote on Jun 4, ’08
I love the background music as well as the informtion on the tarot cards. I’ve personally handled them nor have I had anyone read mine even though the interest is there.
The poem is awesome, it’s almost as if she’s telling him to let go of his manly stubborn ways and see the obvious. |
awakingthelion wrote on Jun 4, ’08
What a wonderful poem and story to go along with it… so much wisdom there…. thank you
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sweetpotatoqueen wrote on Jun 4, ’08
I’m so glad you told us the background surrounding this…and I think it’s fabulous although sad at the same time. Any type of human relationship that gets “hung up” without the ability to progress forward is so frustrating to those around . As for silence..when it is pervasive in relationships it simply smothers the goodwill and energy flow. What does silence say? I think silence says fear…yes I do. Always a pleasure to read your writing !
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I had to re read it too and still don’t know if I understand it; I guess some people are stuck in their own little space and can’t see outside “the square” or not? I too had trouble getting to this post kept being told it was private and only contacts of yours could veiw it…but I’m here now.
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sanssouciblogs wrote on Jun 4, ’08
Must be mercury in retrograde! people can’t get into my albums either and they are set for everyone. How weird! Your interpretation is valid. This person has created his own jail–called fear.
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greenwytch wrote on Jun 4, ’08
WOW, this is fantastic, sue. very powerful stuff! too bad about your friend. sounds like he got stuck in his own mirror of angst. TG you came to your realizations. HUGS
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philsgal7759 wrote on Jun 4, ’08
I like it though yes it does have a very different tone
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knightstar wrote on Jun 5, ’08
I don’t suppose you do online readings–or is that even possible? I’m glad for the explanation, as I would not have begun to understand this particular poem.
–M |
lonewolfwithin wrote on Jun 5, ’08, edited on Jun 5, ’08
sanssouciblogs said
so like he’s sent himself to the corner, interesting… amazing is the distance one goes in the act of self-punishment and denial… amazingly still is the similar act of justifying that reason or reasons… thanks for sharing!
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sanssouciblogs said
“All you have to do is UNTIE your foot.” she whispers. and pray this is done after hearing the whisper?
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sanssouciblogs said
Silence is a tough animal to deal with. at the same time silence is said to be the language of the god
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sanssouciblogs said
Silence is a tough animal to deal with. The enigma is thus: What does silence say? Silence is the library of our minds. In the still times when nothing interrupts our meditation, the greatest orators and poets of all time speak to us and fill our souls with wonder, sometimes dread, anticipation or even humor or music. Silence has to be managed like a dam on a raging river. The beauty lies in the controlling of the silence, only allowing in what we choose. Silence is consent, silence speaks volumes.
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bostonsdandd wrote on Jun 5, ’08
“I see” says the blind man ;o).
Just IYF I think the Poet Speaking is more spiritual than the poem LOL. Just my opinion. Silence says that to without yourself from life it lives you instead of you living it. It says that when you are silent it hurts worse than 10000 shots from a gun. It hurts more than any other word in the English language. And it says that prolonged silences kills everything around it. |
dangerousmeredith wrote on Jun 5, ’08
very profound. nicely economic and controlled
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It’s very good… and you are very right. Sometimes we have to be close to the experience you illustrate so well with the Tarot cards. We have to live it to understand (beneath our skins, to live it) that WE CAN RESCUE NO ONE. It’s very true. I lived a situation like those too. Because I had to learn the same thing. Have you heard the saying: “Relationships work between equals?”. I have seen it and lived it! One important thing happens after we live a situation like that: we never, ever get engaged in a similar one. If it starts to be like that with someone, we pick up the cues really fast. At least that’s happened with me. However, the relationship is sacred. Because it taught you that (and perhaps more lessons). And this can be any kind of a relationship (friendship, whatever).
Something really impressive is the name: Christ. I have a psychoanalyst friend who says our parents unconsciously (subconsciously?) put some energy into us through our names. It is obvious in this case. I have also met people with fantastic names (their meaning), such as “Reyna” in Spanish, which means Queen. Well, the “queen” I met had had a pretty hard life. Yet, the unconscious imprint was there (it was to be read thinking of the opposite. Sometimes the unconscious wish or energy someone is carrying is SO bad, it is hidden so an opposite name is selected). Very interesting. I am glad you are the Empress. Now, about the Hanged Man… it is not a nice card to get. The one I dislike most (not Death, which just means an ending, and in turn will bring new things (Life) eventually). |
sanssouciblogs wrote on Jun 6, ’08
So right in so many ways! Imagine the surname CHRIST (pronounced with short i). A life of martyrdom and sacrifice. My first name means Lily; resurrection, ascension. My last name root means pearl in Hebrew. The Empress is the card of creativity and ideas; she gives birth, she is the mother, the loving, forgiving unconditional lover. She is also Venus, the card of attraction. It’s all very interesting!
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dangerousmeredith wrote on Jun 26, ’08
no I was wrong – I HAVE read this before. I was wondering if it was the hangman poem. But it is interesting to reread it in context of your latest poem
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